Baby driver was lit

Yass. Movie night checked. Thanks to my bestie. Show time was at 10 30 pm. We came into the cinema hall a bit late. Went to toilet first thing first haha. And then the advertisement still played on the screen so we got some times to calm down from the rush since my partner hated it the most if the movie already started even before we got into our seat. Lol. And then the first 30 mins this annoying one just played w the phone not even concentrate on the movie at all sigh. What a spoiler. Yeah the overall it was good in action, romance and also suspens. Just the way i like it. Except for lovey dovey scene yeah you know its awkward. Umm humm.. it was a good night. Till meet again.

Funnn

Here at setapak central mall for the first time ever. And it's lit wohoo. Many main outlet. Most important is the foodcourt which here they named as foodstreet. Various food yeah. I tried pecal lele and it's ok ok. As usual i cannot tolerate w drinks price muahaha omo omo i paid 5.30 for a glass of milo dinosaur whattt.. no more drinks outside ok.. only plain water..  i loveee the arrangement the mood and everything there yeah defo will come again. and thennn next must stop outlet as usual the bookstore maynn. Popular bookstore. Wandered around and then ( ohh haha the chair sounds became louder hahhaa i had to stop sitting here w out paying a cents yeah rite.. yeahh fine. ) oh yea i wandered around popular bookstore. Sneak peek some books. Tried out all of headphone trial. Wohoo it's cool. I love the sony gear one. It has deep bass. So cool. Price around rm50. Gonna get  one sooner. Green one of course.
Ahh what else. I sat on the floor reading thus parenting book called 3 crayon 3 paper and bla bla bla cannot recall the exact title. It is super duper cool book. It took me bout an hour reading this potty train part hahha. And i miss my boy ammar and also his lil sister of course.. hehe gonna call them  later..  mmm and then here i am now in the family game centre where they has all sorts of game to release stress lolol this one uncle playing drum so intensely it made me laugh haha working all day  must be so hard on you rite..  im looking for a place where i can sit and just chill and ended up here.  It is loud.. yes.. and it also fun.  All laughing.. all cheering.. heheh i might wanna try the car race it looks fun tho.. yass let's give a try..

stranger caused sad tears

"You macam sedih je? Moment tu."

and like a broken dam pouring the water causing flood, my eyes bursts into tears. full of sadness. sounds so deep. unstoppable. cried w full of sorrow. i just let em out as much as i want. with all my heart. without tryin to stop. just let myself drown into the feeling. cause i know. i've been holding on for so long. lifeless. emotionless. i've been ignoring the sadness tryin to knock on the door of my heart. i've been acting strong.. as if im not at all affected bout everything happen recently. all scattered. messed up for a countless time. no one know. how i feel. no one ask if im okay. me neither. cause i kept telling myself that im ok. and whenever i felt like im not, i said i'm gonna be ok sooner or later.

when this stranger throw those question to me.. ohh i just realised.. . it's been awhile since i receives that kinda question. like whoever cares enough to ask if im ok or not. and afterall, that's how i prefer. much better. at such times, i need space for myself more than i need people throwing symphaty. it always took a right person at a right time asking a right question. on point.

and i answered the cliche..

"biasalah dah besar. pujuk dri sndri. im ok"

being nice, he said i can count on him, share if there's problem, eventho we donno each other..

as usual, i found myself closer to a stranger who do not know anything bout me. nothing is there to judge on me but my true self. we can speak freely. no barrier. no judgement. only pure opinions. just like what i need.

i would never opted to pour my story, probs or anything meaningful to people who close to me like friends or family as how it is supposed to be.. just because.. i realised that i  need someone to lend me their shoulder to cry on, their ears to listen evrything that burden me, not necessarily their mouth to reply saying i should not do this and that, i should be like this and that, put the blame on me when i've had realised it enough. i know. i know. i don't need you to tell me that. just hear me out w out judging my mistakes. since i always found myself learnt something from experiences, not from your belief nor advices. it is always my bad for cannot tolerate on those small flaw of people. no one is perfect. we're all not perfect. full of flaws. and that's what makes us human.
just make a better mistakes tomorrow.

P/S: i'm on my period. just being hormonal. no worry. Im ok. hakuna matata.

3:32am